I’m nearing a huge crossroads in my life. I’m 26, have a beautiful family and a stale job. I make enough money to provide for my family, but the monotony of my “job” is destroying my happiness. During the week (Mon-Fri \ 8AM-5PM) I drag into work, knowing exactly how my day is going to begin and how it will end. On the weekends I’m a talented filmmaker, I enjoy the challenge of organizing a movie set and directing talented actors. I live the life I want to live on Saturday and Sunday… But, sure enough, Monday comes too soon and I’m forced into the gray world of a guaranteed paycheck (security).
Sometimes I feel like throwing caution to the wind and living a life that makes me happy, but I can’t risk putting my family in financial turmoil. But, I can’t bear the thought dragging through this life feeling unfulfilled. Some people believe in fate and destiny… I personally think fate and destiny are horseshit. You have to work hard to be happy. You can’t just wait around for the time to be right… that time may never come. I guess I’ll continue to pursue my dreams on the weekends and hopefully I can manage this dilemma. On the up side… I know that everyone feels like this at some point in his or her life. It’s the people that remain consistent and fight for their happiness that I respect. Most give up… But, I’m not trading my happiness for a lifetime of monotonous security.
